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Well, it’s been a rough couple of days….our bathroom in our bedroom had a leak in the sink and the water leaked into the wall and into our closet and soaked all of my clothes…ugh!   And we have a super high deductible for our homeowner’s insurance..not good at all!

I was so overwhelmed and had to drop my son off at a pizza place and MAN did I want pizza.  I brought a pizza home for my daughter and was good and only ate a small amount of cheese off of one piece.  I was so close to just shoving the whole pizza down my throat…but I did hold back.  I guess that is a small victory out of this s&%$#y day!

I can’t promise that I won’t have a glass of wine tonight though…I deserve it and have room for it with my points!

I have my first weigh in tomorrow.  I am sooooo curious to see what the scale will read.  I stayed within my points everyday and only used 5 out of my allowable 35 flex points….wonder if all the red wine will affect the scale!  Please say it didn’t…I need my glass of red wine a night..lol…it keeps me sane!!!

I am very active on facebook.  I have my good friends I talk to every day and then there are my friends from high school who I am catching up with in preparation for my 20 year reunion this August.  I log in everyday and always update my status, but for some reason, I do not mention WW or my weight loss goals.   I just don’t want my high school friends to know….is that pathetic or what?  Not that they can’t view my pictures and see that I am a bit overweight.  I am not sure why I am doing that…..hmmm..

I am so excited…we have planned a trip to Las Vegas for March Madness.  My husband and I are huge sports fans and love to gamble (we keep it to a minimum if we can)…we are going with some friends that are so fun.  This really gives me a motivation to lose some weight before we go so I can fit into my cute jeans and tops!!

My daugther is sooo funny.  She is seven and keeps asking me…”how is your skinny stuff going?”….I told her that I need her help keeping me in check..but I don’t want her to think I am obsessed with my weight..I don’t want her to start having body image issues…

I have lots of work to do and then I am going to head out on a walk on this gorgeous Arizona winter (NOT..LOL) day!  I downloaded a book on my Ipod, so as I walk I am also listening to a great story!

It is hard to be good on rainy days…comfort food is calling my name!  But I have not given in!  I am sticking to my points and have barely used any of my flex points that are allowed.  It will be interesting for my first weigh in on Friday to see if this is going to work for me!

Man..I am dying for a diet coke..lol!

So, I did great this weekend food and exercise wise.  I stayed within all my WW points each day and barely used any flex points.  I did use A LOT of points for my red wine, but stayed on track!  Had a bbq today and just ate small portions…that is the key for me I think!

I think it may be clicking, but I’ve said that before…but for now, I’m focused and determined!  Here’s to a good week full of good food choices and lots of exercising and relaxing on myself and ENJOYING LIFE without the focus on food!!

My title is sooo true when it comes to weight loss for me!  I got the book “Finally Thin” by Kim Bensen who lost 200 pounds with WW and she talks about the Honeymoon Phase and that’s where I am right now.  I have my binder full of recipes, my food diary filled up with healthy choices,  feeling all great and ready and then a week goes by and I start petering out and thinking it’s too much work..I really need to have this all as a daily priority in my life…it should be like my job.

I went to my first WW meeting this morning and LOVE my WW leader..she is a riot!  That will really benefit me to want to go every Friday.  I weighed in at 171.2…the heaviest I have EVER been.  I was 162 pounds when I delivered my third child…  That is a major reality check…..I am heavier now than when I was 9 months pregnant…THAT is shameful..truly.

I just got back from working out for an hour and feel great!

I am hopeful looking towards the weekend….Weekends are hardest for me with my kids’ activities, parties, food and alcoholic beverages!  So, I will put forth the effort to succeed this weekend! I will drink only two glases of red wine tonight at my friends party and then switch to water…. I will do the same when we go out with friends tomorrow night for dinner with friends.  Red wine has 2 points…and red wine is my chocolate…I could live without chocolate forever but can’t live without my red wine…LOL..

I can’t believe I am back here after not following through last year.  I guess I can just keep trying to be consistent.  Still…I am soo pathetic!

I am going to my first WW meeting tomorrow morning. I used to go when I worked full time and lost 18 pounds…but of course it came back.
I have my 20 year high school reunion coming in August and if that isn’t motivation, I don’t know what is. Bad enough that I am from Orange County near the beach and most of my high school friends are still beautiful California Girls..while I am an overweight Arizona girl!
As I send this off into blog outer space, I ask the weight loss gods to give me strength to stick to this!

Well, I guess it wasn’t that bright to try and start my “lifestyle” a couple of days before I left for our family vacation.  Oh well.  We went to Steamboat Springs, CO for a week and enjoyed the beautiful weather and outdoors.  Did a lot of outside activities but also ate and drank a lot.  Got back on Sat night and started back up drinking water and watching what I eat.  Good thing is my hubby is going to join me in my efforts to get in shape.   We are joining at the rec center this week and vow to work out three times a week.  We shall see….   So much to do this week after being gone.  Wish the kids were back in school then I could really get my work and workouts done!

Happy Monday (early morning)

I am back with my tail between my legs.  This is a running habit for me.  Start out great for a week or so and then just say “screw it”.   Now I have not cared, not worked out, and have crept up to 170 pounds…my highest weight ever (I was less than that when I was 9 months pregnant with my third child).  What is my problem?  I am super busy….but that’s no excuse…I LOVE good food….no excuse…. I love to have a drink or two…no excuse…. I hate to exercise…no excuse!!!  I was playing tennis and loving it, but now it’s 110 her in Arizona and that can’t happen.  (or is that just another excuse?).

I often wonder, “when will it just click and become a way of life and not a week here or there?”  I truly feel like that could happen, but it just hasn’t.

So faithful blog, I will give it another try!   My one great motivation is my husband’s 20 year reunion is in October and I WILL NOT look like this.  My hubby is too good looking to have me on his arm looking like this….   Plus MY 20 year reunion is in the summer of 2009 and I absolutely cannot look like this when I see all my old friends from high school.  If that’s not motivation, I don’t know what is.

I just have to really try and not give my self unrealistic goals…..day by day..right?

here i go again…….

mini goals:

drink more water, work out three times a week (at least), smaller portions….

 Well, I did something I’m very proud of.  My friend and I went to see Atonement tonight (great movie) and I didn’t have ANY popcorn (which is my absolute favorite)…I also didn’t have any wine with dinner tonight (which is also one of my favorite things…lol!)  I only had about 1150 calories today which is great.  The bad thing is I didn’t make it to my work out today as I had really bad cramps this morning.  Glad to get the bloated thing out of the way, because I have to weigh in on Monday.

Got a busy day tomorrow.  My 6 year old has gymnastics, 13 year old has baseball and my hubby and I have a party to go to tomorrow night.  I need to make sure and eat healthy all day, so I can have a drink or two.

need to drink more water…….good night blog…

I’m at 1400 calories and it’s 10pm at night.  I am drinking hot tea with splenda right now because I have a long night of work ahead of me.  I WILL NOT go to the kitchen tonight!  I didn’t drink enough water today.  I have my workout with my friends tomorrow morning at 8:00a.m.  We have added in a new boxing circuit!  My arms will be feeling it tomorrow!!!  Good night blog.  Hope to meet some fellow determined weight loss buddies!!!  I could use the support!